My Official Last Post of 2009 with a Requested Review

I said in my last post that I might write another post. So I am. The only problem is that, once again, I've no idea what to write about. I've written about some changes that will start in our next year. I even got emotional writing it.

Well I could write my review of "New Moon" that was requested of me or I could write about some statics I learned about New Years Eve or I could write as I eat the box of nerds I'm indulging myself with.

Or I could tell you how statistics say that on New Years Even an average of 421 people die in car accidents as I eat these nerds and write and tell you that I thought New Moon, the movie, was better than New Moon the book. Or I could do it the other way, switching around the subjects a few times but I think you get the picture.

Oh I've got a question for everyone? Why do people make such a big bloody deal about vampires that sparkle and werewolves that have hot human abs? Err, I mean werewolves that grow exceptionally fast? I mean seriously, the Twilight Saga is not a big deal at all. Okay so there's vampires and werewolves in the movie, but Underworld and Van Helsing and Dracula have those and they have a MUCH BETTER story to it. And the characters are more evolved and detailed than Meyer's characters.

I'm not hating on the Saga, like I said in my Twilight review. I'm simply stating the facts. Here's what New Moon has as pros:

• Robert Pattinson, who I have to admit, is handsome in his charming, ruffled way and he's not too bad of an actor. I'd like to see him do more interesting and complex movies that have a dynamic character in which he has to work hard at portraying such a character and in such a complicated and better written movie. Because I personally think he could rock at it. But we'll have to see. I believe he has a new movie coming out soon. I'll have to see it and review.

• Taylor Lautner, who is a wonderful actor of his age, and he's really, I can't believe I'm going to say this juvenile word- Hot! Other than his hot muscles (thank goodness I'm still 17 and can say that without sounding like a pervball) he's quite the actor, hell I loved him in "The Adventures of Sharkboy and Lavagirl" because he played his character to the T. (Whatever the "t" means cause I haven't a bloody clue.) I'd like to see how he'd do in a movie where he had to play a man with multiple personalities. That would be a challenge.

• Kristen Stewart, I think a lot of the guys go just to see her because she is pretty but her acting does need some work. I wasn't too impressed, hopefully the movies she's in will be better for her. I'd like to see her in an action packed movie that gave her a lot of challenge and punch. Maybe if she portrayed a character that seemed to have more emotions than just love, sadness and fear then maybe she could truly prevail.

• The Cullen Clan- The actors in the Cullen Clan were portrayed wonderfully. Alice, Rosalie, Esme, Jasper, Emmett, and Carlisle. Otherwise known as – Ashley Greene, Nikki Reed, Elizabeth Reaser, Jackson Rathbone, Kellan Lutz, and Peter Facinelli. They were absolutely, without a doubt wonderful. I especially liked Jackson's performance because it's hard playing a guy who looks like he's in pain and walks like he has a stick up no where fun. And Ashley….whew, her portrayal of Alice was perrrrfect.

• The New Bad Clan- The Volturi. I like this twist, it's the only good one I believe was made in both movies. Twilight's bad guys were just "bad guys" they had no real power over seven good vampires. But the Voluri had power, all over Italy and even over other vampires in other parts of the world. So Meyer did right by them, as did the movie.

• The Audience of Young Girls. I know a few young girls and immature teenage girls and know what they what and see. An immortal guy who falls deeply in love with a girl who is just herself. A dream guy for a lot of girls. And also, a buff softie at heart who's loved a girl since they made mud pies….Without those girls, this movie would probably not have made as much as it did.

• The "Other Worldly" with feelings- Girls seem to love the whole "They're supposed to be bad but are good and fall in love anyways" persona of the supernatural. And what's not to like? A good, handsome, blood sucking immortal who wants a girl intensely. A hot guy with fur who loves a girl with the depths of his werewolf heart. I mean, come on, I've heard better stories that haven't gotten quite the attention that the Twilight Saga has. Yes, Underworld and Van Helsing being two of them. And both have romance and the supernatural and MORE.

That pretty much sums it up. The last bullet paragraph was more sarcastic on my part but hey, it's true…I could go on and on but the Twilight Saga doesn't warrant that kind of time and my fingers really are sore, as is my shoulder.

My point is this- The Twilight Saga is a good chick flick to watch as well as a whimsical movie to relax with. But it's not as big of a deal as it apparently is to some people. Want a list of "Big Deal" movies? Here- The Dark Knight, Angels and Demons, Public Enemies, Transformers 1 & 2, Taken, Push, Knowing, Lakeview Terrance….Those are just the few I've seen. There are a lot more I need to catch up on.

But I like watching the Twilight Saga, or the only two movies out so far because it's mindless good fun and it's a good movie to sit down and relax with as you eat yummy fattening candy. That's my opinion…..What's yours?

Keep A Weather Eye On The Horizon

My last post of 2009. And I came to my keyboard knowing what I wanted to write about. Change. The word and idea that some dread and that some love. For me, it's a bit of both. My reality of change is going to be big, for me. Some people might be like- "Oh that's not such a bad change," or "Some people have bigger changes, yours is just a little one compared to other changes." Well no matter what people think. 2010 might prove to test me. So here it is...

If you've read my other posts you know that I'm seventeen and currently living with my Mom and all that stuff that I already said before that I won't say again because I don't need to. (And if you're absolutely clueless read my other posts to get the clue.) Well, on January 9th I'm flying out of state and will not be back for two months, three at most. I'm moving in with my Nanny, whom I refer to as Nan at times. No, she's not a hired caregiver. She's my Grandmother.

Anyways. I'm moving with her for a few months because she has insurance on me and my Mom doesn't. If you're wondering why, it's because the govern-damn them-ment says that my Mom makes too much on unemployment for Access to put me on insurance. So they won't put me on, but they put my Mom on. And I'm terribly grateful they put her on insurance because if they had put me on and not her, she'd be screwed, where as I have another alternative. My Nan.

Because I'm going to live with my Nan for awhile she can file for insurance for me, I can't remember what place she went to to file but I got approved for insurance. The reason my Mom and Nan decided to let me move with my Nan is because I need lots of work done that would take a lot more time and cost one hell of a lot of money that my Mom just doesn't have.

So this alternative will be easier for my Mom. Now, my Nan is an amazing person. She never sits down, she's always cleaning something, she always doing something, she spoils her grandchildren, speaks her mind and doesn't give a damn if someone thinks wrong of her. I absolutely adore her. Luckily, she isn't a meddling grandmother who wishes to see her whole family married.

I fly out to her place, in Oregon, on January 9 in the morning. I'm terribly excited to fly again seeing as I absolutely adore flying. The list of appointments I'm going to have will probably be the longest list I've seen in my seventeen years. I'm very nervous about it because I really, really, really, really, really don't like doctors and dentists. And if you doubt that I don't like them that much I can happily add more really's.

Eye appointments, blood work, regular health check-ups, maybe some scans, and the worst for me...... Dental work. Eeeeek! I'd rather have a hundred needles in my body than have some sadistic person play with needles, sharp objects and tools in my mouth. But it has to be done because I still have most of my baby teeth. Geez, I still have a cap on my tooth from when I was three years old! So a lot has to be pulled. We'll have to see what the bloody dentist says.

But I'd rather have all of that done than the one thing that my Mom keeps telling me that my Nan and Uncle are going to teach me..........Driving. I'd rather get one tooth pulled every day than to learn to drive. That's how deep my fear goes of driving. So if what my Mom says is true I might be forced to drive because I still haven't told my Mom and Nan about why I fear driving so much. And even if I did they'd probably still force me.

Changes? Yes, those indeed are some big changes. Here's another one- Being away from my Mom and other members of my family who live around me for a few months. I love my family, I'd be a madhouse without them and most likely I'd be depressed. So that's a big change for me because I've never gone so long without seeing them and being around them. Well, except when my Aunt Staci and brother Chris lived in Texas, but then again I didn't know Chris was my brother and we all weren't so close as we are now.

Being away from my Mom will be really hard for me. The longest I've been away from her is two weeks. She may not understand me and some of the things I do and say and think but I love her. She's been my support since the day I was born and the best Mom a child could ever have. Even when she doesn't have money she always tries to find a way to make me and my brother, Sammy, happy and give us a fun time. So it'll definitely be a huge- here's the C word again- Change.

But perhaps the biggest of them all...Starting a New Year without my Dad. 2009 will always be the most happiest and dreadful year of my life. Because I both found and lost my Dad in the same year. I haven't yet written a post regarding the full story with my Dad, and I won't right now and perhaps for awhile because the grief and hurt and anger is still raw. But it will always be hard and raw and challenging because there was so much we planned. And now, so much we lost.

And now I've got to stop writing about him because I'm already crying.

*Five Minutes Later*

I have to admit I needed areal quick break to gather my thoughts. And yes, I figured I'd better put put the "Five Minutes Later" because if I hadn't and read this I'd probably think it was a real quick, rude change of pace and subject.

Anyways, it'll be an interesting few months for me to be sure. Maybe I should make a New Years Resolution that I'll write more in my blog everyday. Seeing has I don't often enough. I think I'll write another tonight before it strikes midnight.

So do as my title says my friend! And have a most Happy New Year.

It's One Nation Under ALL, Not One Nation Under The Government.

Dramatized. A word that describes this week to perfection. If you follow me on Twitter and have followed my tweets then you might know the run-down of what's going on. If not, then this post is for you.

Right now I'm babysitting three kids. Two girls toddlers and a baby boy. I started yesterday and spent the night, and will again till tomorrow afternoon when the kids mom and mine get back from California.

It's a terrible, unlawful, stupid, horrid thing when you are being threatened to death and the law will do nothing about it. I say this because of what is happening to a friend of the family. My mom's best friend Leanne lives in California with her two daughters and her three room mates. Leanne couldn't afford the renting her house by herself so her co-worker, her co-workers son and sister came to live in Leanne's house to help with rent plus they had no where to go.

Unfortunately Leanne hadn't known that all her room mates were alcoholics and druggies. The son of the three is 17 and walks around the house naked with Leanne's two 11 & 13 year old daughters in the house. His mom lets him. The son has also stood by Leanne's girls beds as they were sleeping, luckily they have not been harmed in any way. And the son has also had underage girls come into he house and drinking.

Now the son's mother, Leanne's co-worker, lets him do anything he wants. And she has a few arrest warrants on her as well! And her son, sister and herself have stolen all of Leanne's dishes and a few other things and a few days ago her cell phone too when she was in the bathroom. They've locked all of it in their room and Leanne is too kind and faint hearted to go in there and get it back.

And just two nights ago Leanne's co-worker physically attached her. The cops were called but they didn't do anything because while Leanne told the truth, the co-worker denied it and said it was self-defense because Leanne attacked first, which is something Leanne would never do. The police said that they could either take them both in or not, they chose not, of course.

But after they left Leanne overheard her co-workers son say to his mom that he and his girlfriend were going to hit Leanne off with their gun........Police were called and still they didn't do anything!

The room mates have been given an eviction notice from the owners because they haven't paid their side of the rent and Leanne has to move out to because the whole rent isn't paid. Now, there is a law in California that implies that if the renter lets a guest into their place then that or those guest(s) don't ever have to leave. That's what is protecting the room mates at this point.

So my Mom and Leanne's sister Lisa (which is the mother of the kids I'm babysitting) left yesterday to drive to California and help Leanne get out of the situation by moving her and her girls out of the house and getting her stuff back.

Luckily Lisa's husband's brother lives in the same area as Leanne and is going to get some friends with him to help Leanne, Lisa and my mom move the stuff and make sure no one gets hurt or in the way. They're really big guys so I'm sure that the room mates won't get in the way of those men.

Now, why I'm telling you this is for one reason: To show you that the government doesn't care about everyone like they like to lead on. Otherwise Leanne would have been helped. She called the police twice and her other sister and her mom called the police as well. Nothing was done, nothing but a check-up at Leanne's house.

Leanne was afraid for her girls's life as well as her own, you would think after all those calls that the police would get that she was afraid an do something! But was something done? NO! It may not be the actually officers fault that they couldn't do anything but it most certainly is the governments fault!

Many things need to be changed but the government doesn't see it. They see themselves and do for themselves and not for The People Of The United States. It's One Nation Under ALL, not One Nation Under The Government.

Absolute Truth: The Lie Within Myself

Years. Months. Weeks. Days. Hours. Minutes. Seconds....They all pass by so fast sometimes. It's hard to catch up to life. And when I do, I don't ride life. I let it ride me. For weeks I've been pondering about how to write this post, and about how I would handle officially posting it. Because this blog post of mine won't be like my others. This one will not be censored by anything. It will not be about anything but myself, how I feel, what I fear, who I am....nothing but me. And if that interests you, then I'm surprised. If not, you can imagine I'm not surprised.

On Twitter I am known as Gypsyladyamber, just as I am here. On Twitter people say I am confident, funny, outgoing, and positive with a zest for life. They also think I'm older than I am apparently. Which is a a very good compliment considering a lot of people my age seems complete dunderheads. And some think I'm British. I've ignored that. I figured the mystery of not knowing my age, or what Nationality I am, would keep my followers interested because I'm already not interesting.

In order for me to be completely truthful in this post I do have to let the mystery fade and brake. So here it is. I am 17 years old, I live in America and am not British. My name is Amber and I live with my mother. My father just died in October, I only just started to know him because I only just found him in Febuary of 2009 and I didn't even get to meet him. We only got to talk by e-mails and phone. I had a step-father to the age of 14 and unfortunatly he is still in my life and I fear, will always be in my life. I have no job and I am studying for my GED that i hope to take sometime next year when I feel I'm ready. And while I consider myself to be a Gypsy I do not consider myself any of the things that my Twitter followers and Twitter friends consider me. Not even what my own family and friends consider me.

I am weak. I am a coward. I am fearful. I am a lie within myself. I try so hard to portray a confident young female who knows where she is going and knows what she wants. But I am not. But apparently I can fool people.

And I'm scared. I'm scared down to my bones because I am scared of things that it seems no one else around me is afraid of. For instance, I am afraid to drive. I'm fine in a car if someone else is driving but the idea of myself being behind the wheel and controlling it is damn frightening to me. I don't believe I'd be a good and well-rounded driver. I don't think I can handle it.

And even when someone else is driving I get these scenarios in my head of what could happen, and it's always more than one scenario. So the idea of being behind the wheel as my mind goes through those scenarios detail by agonizing and scary detail is torture and terrifying for me. I've driven my mom's old car before, three times and each time my heart varied between stopping and thumping at a speed that's probably not healthy. That was months ago. I haven't gotten behind the wheel after that, and each time my mom asks, I say no.

I had a job at K-Mart last year. I lasted 3 months and loved what I did most of the time. Maybe that's because I worked in the shoe department and that's a complete girl thing. At the time K-Mart wasn't in control of the shoe department, it was another company that just signed a lease with K-Mart to sell under their store name. So I didn't have to use a cash register, which relieved me more than you can imagine. I didn't have to do anything but organize the shoes, which trust me, wasn't as easy as it sounds, and I had to help customers find the shoe they wanted, the size and such. And I'm pretty horrible with communication but it helped that problem a bit, not that it does much good for me now cause I'm back into my old distant ways.

I lost my job on the last day of my, what they called, 3 month training. Because after 3 months you have to file 3 warnings in order to be fired, if you've been working for less than 3 months than you can get fired off the spot, no warning required. That's what happened to me. My supervisor told her boss that I wasn't fast enough with my job, that I didn't work and that she caught me with my cell phone out once. The first reason was only partially true, I had my slow days and had my fast. The second wasn't true at all because I'd forget to take my lunch until my shift was almost over already. The third reason was true because that one time was an emergency.

I almost pointed out to my supervisor that she had her cell phone out twice in front of me, once to call her daughter and tell her a song that she loved was on when we weren't on break. And the second to text someone. I didn't point it out though, I was too crushed to speak. My mother spoke for me because she too worked at K-Mart at the time.

Losing my job just made me feel like a failure, it still does because I enjoyed what I did because it was perfect for me. I hate cash registers because I know that if I use one I'll screw up the entire purchase of a customer each time and they seem to complex to figure out for me. I'm not saying I'm stupid because I know I'm not. Deep down I know I'm not. But I feel like I am sometimes because I do know that I couldn't work a cash register correctly, when thousands of people my age can. So I haven't gotten a job because I'm afraid to fail, which in turn makes me already a failure. Even I know that because it's only logical. Yet I can't find the strength to go out there and try, I can't find the courage.

I am a coward. I am a failure. I am weak. And I am scared. I'm talentless, dreamless, hopeless....I wish I could add fearless to that less list but I can not. I'm sitting here already scared because I'm finally putting these words down on my screen. I'm finally making the words that were only thoughts before official. And it scares me to my core.

I don't know where I am going, I don't know what I want to do, and I don't know where I can go with my life. It seems like such a waste, my life. But I stay for several reasons. My mother, my brothers, my family, my new found family, my friends and to endure every second of my life because I believe I should.

I probably sound whiny. Maybe I am. But I promised nothing but absolute truth in this post. And absolute truth is what my readers will get from now on. So continue to read if you like, if you want to read the ramblings and thoughts and opinions of a talentless failure that calls herself a Gypsy Lady.

"The greatest enemy of any one of our truths may be the rest of our truths." ~William James

"Truth is no Doctoresse, she takes no degrees at Paris or Oxford... but oftentimes to such an one as myself, an Idiota or common person, no great things, melancholizing in woods where waters are, quiet places by rivers, fountains, whereas the silly man expecting no such matter, thinketh only how best to delectate and refresh his mynde continually with Natura her pleasaunt scenes, woods, water-falls, or Art her statelie gardens, parks, terraces, Belvideres, on a sudden the goddesse herself Truth has appeared, with a shyning lyghte, and a sparklyng countenance, so as yee may not be able lightly to resist her." ~Charles Lamb

How To Write Your Follow Friday Tweets

I changed my mind about posting tomorrow, I still am but I'm posting this one today as well. This post is specifically about one thing that I've been meaning to write about. A trend on Twitter called Follow Friday. Now if your an old user of twitter you know what this is, but you may not know how to use it or you are looking for a new way to introduce the people you follow to your followers. If you are a Twitter newbie then this is your guide.

I LOVE Follow friday and Twitter and you should too because it a way to introduce those you follow to your followers. And you should do it in your own unique way and not the lists of users with the #FF or #FollowFriday hastag at the beginning or end of that tweet.

Now for newbies- a hashtag is this # just that and then you put whatever your subject is that you want to have as a trend at the end of this in one sentance, no spaces. Such as- #topmoviesof2009 or #followfriday or #red and these create trends that others can join into.

Some people do Follow friday tweets in their own way or the original- a tweet listed with just usernames and then on of the Follow friday hashtags, which I believe to be BORING and unimaginative, unless of course you have a little saying at the beginning like, "friends who make me smile," or "Tweeter filled with information at their finger tips."

Now for Follow friday what you do it this- You tell your followers who they should follow and WHY! I mean come on, are you really going to follow someone you don't know that's in a list like this- "#FF @blah @boring1 @tweetdledee @tweetdledum @dontfollowme @imboring @eheheheh @blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah" (No these aren't real usernames. I just made them up....I hope.)

Ask yourself would I follow these people if I saw a list like that? If the answer is no, then why do it yourself if you wouldn't follow those people? If yes, read this blog two more times. The point of Follow Friday is to INDRODUCE THOSE YOU FOLLOW TO YOUR FOLLOWERS!

Below I am going to show you how I do my tweets, maybe they will give you some ideas, and yes these are real ones that I've done already.

• Follow @fjfonseca because he's inteliigent, fun and funny and a great Waver! He's a MUST follow for all. <3>
• Follow @lindsayrcg because she's incredibaly sweet and funny. Built with a heart of gold and a lovely writer. She's a complete joy! <3>
• Follow this woman because she is pure lovelines and fun. She's friendly and funny and a woman with a beautiful heart. @arbonneteam #FF
• Lovely people with a heart so big and a personality that keeps my smile strong. @mitzchi @AhhPhotography @keeperofdreams @Mithroi #FF
• Follow @michelangelo200 because he is such a friendly, lovely and fun man to be friends with here!!! <3>
• Follow my dear, lovely friend @DrJays Intelligent & Intel smart. Funny & amazing fun! Kind & sweet & filled with a big heart! <3>

See what I mean? Those are personlized tweets ABOUT those specific PEOPLE! They aren't robots you do a roll call for. There are many ways to do your Follow friday tweets, you can list down 2-4 people 5 if you can manage saying WHY they should be followed. You can put down one person in your Follow Friday tweet and explain WHY they should be followed, you can list their personliaty like I do sometimes and all sorts of things. There's a person I follow who does hilarious nonsense tweets that are just FUN! Such as:

• #FF @Gypsyladyamber cause she's the youngest circus clown to ever work for ringlings. (From the funny man named @seanelgar )

It's funny (and I promise, not true.) But it's imaginative. That tweet right there says "Follow this person, I like them enough to make fun of them and they like me enough to let them." It also says "This person is fun so follow them, why else would I put this silly rubbish down?"

Your Follow Friday tweets should be personlized in some way! In the way your comfortable with, I just hope you're not more comfortable with those lousy lists. Although these are nice too:

• 
  #FollowFriday @livinlime @MomsofAmerica @2BitViews @Gypsyladyamber @etrendzshop @JohnLusher #TwitterRoyalty~ (From the lovely lady @arbonneteam )

So please don't be boring and blah and eh by listing your Follow friday Tweets with no WHY or EXPLAINATION. Personlize. (Oh, and please do follow those I did my Follow Friday Tweets about.)

Internet Geekess on Google Wave and Useless Nonsense

Google Wave. More confusing than Twitter. I finally got an invite and snatched it up like an aligator in a swamp filled with birds. (God, that's a horrible image.) I have no bloody idea what to do with Google Wave. First of all, I can't even use it that much because I am Internetless right now. Which sucks more than you can imagine for me, an Internet Geekess. Second, if I don't have the time to figure it out, I obviously am not going to figure it out. So therefore, when I get Internet, I will have more time and will figure it out.

Those were my two points and I think they went absolutly nowhere. Oh well. I think I just had to boast a bit about me have a Wave account. Now, I said just a few seconds ago that I am an Internet Geekess. It's not because I know so much about the Internet, because believe me, I'm still learning and will hoag as much knowledge of the Intenet as I can. I love the Internet for it's compliexities and huge developments and sea full of information. I read stories on Quizilla.com even because I like to see what people come up with. I read random information. For instance, it is impossible to lick your elbow. And did you know that it took Leo Tolstoy six years to write "War & Peace". I've never read it but I do know that tidbit. Also, did you know that the first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time TV were Fred and Wilma Flintstone? Yeah just useless crap.

The Internet is just an amazing thing. Which is why I wish I had it so I could update more often. I have been negleting it though. I think tomorrow I'm going to write something else and update on my Landlords computer cause they let me us it when they are out, which is what I'm doing now. But I can't use Google wave on it cause they only have Internet Explorer and Google Wave doesn't work half as well on this as it does on Google Chrome.

Oh and at least 75% of people who read this will try to lick their elbow!........LOL! Just kidding I had to put that stupid thing in there. Comment me if you do lick though.

Hello Satan's Cellular- GO CHARGERS!

November 22, 2009


So I'm sitting down at the family table with my computer, it's 11 am and I woke up just 30 minutes ago and my big brother has on One Tree Hill....What the hell? All I'm thinking is how he's such a girl! Screams like one too- No joke. And he has to put on lotion every something hours, he puts more on than I do! Nuts. Just nuts. Anyways I'd thought I start off with that.

I'm leaving today to go back to the house, unfortunately. I call it the house, not home. It's not home to me. Home is somewhere you love, somewhere you can find peace. I just sleep, eat and have fun there. California, Italy, Ireland, Washington....those could be a good candidate for what I call my home. Arizona.....Not so much. It's dry, it's ugly but at lease I have some of my family and friends here. Well most of my friends. Now don't get me wrong. I LOVE my house (except for the occasional disgusting, abomination of a bug) because it's where I feel comfortable enough to sleep and break down. (Oh and my big brother just peaked at my blog and saw what I wrote about him. Luckily he can laugh at himself. One of the things I love most about him.) Anyways, I'm not sure I'll find that place that I love soon. It takes time I guess.

I've told some of my readers that I haven't had any real inspiration for writing lately and it's still true.So if you're wondering why this post is so "blah" that's the reason. I'm just writing whatever I can. Oh, today the a Chargers game is FINALLY televised here! I am excited about that. It's against the Broncos too. So it's will be a damn great game. I love Chargers, my big team. I'm new at this fan and football thing. Only started last season. I'm still learning but I do know most of the basics. I love the Chargers because of their teamwork and sportsmanship (though they DO have their moments) and the players seem dedicated enough. They're just a really great team that do their best and try to get better with each game. And with four straight wins in a row, it seems they are bettering themselves.

I just can't wait for this game, even if I feel like I can't breathe. I've had to take my inhaler twice since Friday....I haven't done that in YEARS! I don't know what's wrong because every time I stay at my Aunt and Uncles house I'm always okay and don't really have to take it unless my allergies are up, but it's usually only once. I'm allergic to cats, they have one. Thing is, before this week I've always held Goose, the cat, up close and washed my hands and arms afterward and I'm always FINE! I don't and haven't had to take my inhaler. So it can't be the cat causing this breathing problem. I guess I'm just going to have to take Airborne (nasty, disgusting, unpleasant crap) just in case, because my Mom's worried the H1N1 striking me because I'm under 25. So wish me well.

Well, I'm glad I kept my promise of writing some blog posts. I've been fretting the last few days cause I've been neglecting my blog and Twitter. I just find I haven't any energy. It sucks but I'm sure once I get permanent Internet at the house I'll tweet and blog more often. And once I get a new phone too. There's the buy one get one free deal at Sprint for the Blackberry Curves and I seriously want one!!!! My cell phone is possessed, no joke. It's an LG Rumor and it's getting on the Internet when I hit nothing and goes straight to my homepage, it shuts off in the middle of texting or when I'm having a conversation, it freezes when I'm on the internet or in the middle of a text. Hello Satan's Cellular! So a new phone is defiantly in order.


Well I have to get up off my lazy writing butt and get ready to go and drop my little brother at his house and then head home for the CHARGERS GAME! Woooo! GO CHARGERS and to my fellow Chargers family- LET'S ROCK!

Fire In The Family

November 19, 2009



I'm sitting here thinking- What the hell do I write? I've had no inspiration to write in my blog lately. Except for the Twilight rant yesterday. Things have just been a blur the last few weeks. I'm going to my Aunt and Uncle's house tomorrow and can't wait. My Uncle Larry isn't exactly legal Uncle just yet, he will be once he marries my Aunt but I've known him since the 3rd grade, longer than my whole family has known him. So he's like an Uncle. My brother lives with my Aunt and Uncle because he's legally my Aunt's son but my Mom's biological son. My Aunt adopted him when he was little because my Mom needed help. It was weird when I first found out at 14 years old but it's worked out. He still calls my Aunt his Mom and my Mom his Aunt. People think it's weird. My best friend thinks I have a "Dr. Phil" life because of everything that happens t me. I just call it life's huge surprises.

Anyways, I love my Uncle Larry. He's one of the only people I'd trust with my life. Though I guess it helps that he's a Firefighter. I think he's nuts because he decided that's what he wants to do because I am terrified of fire. But he likes it as far as I can tell.

I think I've been afraid of fire since a house I'd lived in with my Mom and Ex step dad had caught on fire, somehow the fireplace did it. I'm not sure of the details. But I'm defiantly afraid of it. When I went to Universal Studios, we went to the Backdraft show. Now the end of the show was cruel for me because the whole thing caught fire, of course it as restrained (however they did that miracle) and it couldn't cause any damage or get out of control. But then I was on the last level and that level FELL! It didn't fall all the way down of course but enough to make me jump even when frozen with fear, teeth grinding, eyes wide and heart stopped. Not a good experience for me. And not one I'm likely to repeat. If you're over 60 and have high blood pressure or heart problems and you are terrified of fire like I am- I DO NOT RECOMMEND IT! If you're not however, you might find it interesting.

Funny how thoughts travel huh? From sitting, to my Uncle Larry, to fire, to Universal Studios. I love the brain. It's a complex little mystery of life that I don't think science can explain most the time. Something or someone genius knew what s/he was doing when s/he made us Humans.

Twilight and New Moon- When Will It End?

November 18, 2009


Twilight. New Moon. Robert Pattinson. Kristan Stewart. Taylor Lautner. Bella and Jacob this, Edward that. When will it die down? I went into Hot Topic the other day and Heavens above! It was pack loaded with everything Twilight and New Moon. It was ridiculous. Now, I have nothing against the movies or books. Hell, I read each book in 8 hours in 4 days. I saw the movie when it came out on DVD cause I got it when it first came out. I loved the story and characters. But when you see stores with mostly nothing but Twilight stuff and hear people ALWAYS talking about the actors, the "Hot" characters and stuff...It gets old.

Now I can't wait to see New Moon. For five reasons- One, I love seeing books come to life on screen and comparing the two. Two, I want to see if the actors and actresses have strengthened their acting or if it's weakened. Three, it's a good twist in the story. I like the the author took away the beloved Edward for most of it and brought him back shortly. It gives some diversity in her writing and it gives the story better complications than the first book had. Four, I can't wait to see the new vampires from Italy. I can't wait to see which actors and actresses they used and how they've done with their characters. Five, I'm still a female so yes, I can't wait to see some hunky males with their shirts off. Sue me.

Now someone asked me what I thought of the books. It's a good story, but it could have been better. The "Vampires Sparkle" thing is just cheesy and too Hollywood for my taste.But it's someone's imagination and who am I to judge? The plot in each book was great, lots of turns and surprises, but none of the sharp turns that really take us by surprise and drop our jaws, well mine that is. (Remember this is my view, not anybody else's.) The characters need a bit work, I can only see some strengths and weaknesses, humans (and yes vampires as well) will always have more than three strengths and weaknesses. At least that's what I've observed. Each strength is reater than another but that's why we have so many. And it's the same with weaknesses. The characters are not as well devolved in personality either.

I personally think that the book Twilight was better than the movie. An from the looks of the New Moon trailer, I think I'll like the movie New Moon better than the book. But who knows? Now, I won't talk about the actors or actresses just yet because I'd rather not base their acting on just one movie. When I see New Moon, then I might talk about what I think because I'll have a more definite opinion. When all four are out though, I'll make my final verdict.

But like I said in the beginning- When will it die down? Twilight is fun and good, but it's not the best. When all four are down THEN it's the time to go all out til it's all done with. Give some other movies a chance. I don't see Transformers products or Harry Potter or any of the other brilliant movies out on the shelves, and to me those movies were much better than Twilight. But I do applaud Twilight and it's actors and crew for doing their best and making something of themselves and congratulations to them. (No I'm not being a sarcastic witch! I'm being honest)

I'm not "bashing" or "hating on" Twilight, New Moon, the movies actors or actresses, the crew or the author. I'm being honest and just letting my opinion out there. I do love the Twilight saga. I wouldn't have kept the books or bought the movie if I hadn't. If you don't like what I had to say about this, then close the window, tab or whatever your using and go to something else Hope your morning/afternoon/evening/night is enchanting.

Oh and if I didn't spell the Actors and Actress names right, please inform me, I'm too lazy to look it up. :)

Update Of My Life In October

Hey everyone. I know this is my first post in awhile and my first of November. Sadly, I have no subject to write about right now. I promised a reader from Twitter that I would update soon. I just do not have it in me to say what is on my mind right now because it is a personal, terrible and sad thing to me.


I know I owe no explanation but you shall receive one anyways. My father died on October 26th. I flew to Washington and had been there for almost a week and when what I needed to do was done I drove up with my Aunt to Oregon to stay with my Nan for awhile. I return to Arizona on the 10th of November.


As you've read from my other posts, I do not have internet at home so I will not be able to update until I do get it. So if I don't post anything after this before Tuesday then please understand I am not neglecting my blog. I merely cannot update. When I get home I may or may not write so I can update. It all depends on how I am feeling at the time. I'm afraid if I start writing everything I feel will come out and I can't handle that right now.


No, I haven't written anything lately because I've been in a bad sort of state for some weeks and am in a bit of a worse one now. Am I ill? No. I'm just in a bad emotional state that I can't handle right now and just need my family, friends and distractions.


I will not ask you to understand, because I know you can't and won't. But I will and am asking you to TRY to understand why I am not writing.


But I do promise to try to write. Much love- Amber

Communication+Me= HORRIBLE!

October 15, 2009



Communication. One of the many things I am terrible with. I very rarely tell anyone how I feel, what I think, what I'm feeling, what I want and so on. I don't tell my best friend, my mother, my family, not one person. It's all stored inside of me. I have a hard time with opening up. Sometimes I'm grateful for it, and other times...I just wish I had the power to be open and let people see what I feel. But I don't.



I can honestly say I write my feelings down better than I can say them. I can write down what I think better than I can say it. Unless of course I'm telling a person what I think of them, but even then I sometimes can't. Communicating is hard for me. And I hate public speaking.



I guess I'm kind of shy as well, but it's in a reserved and cautious kind of way. It's not in a "Blushing at every word that's said to me" kind of way. I'm not good with people. When a person says something and I don't think it's important or interesting I don't really say anything. It's very hard for me to explain seeing as it's my problem. I don't freeze up when a person talks to me, but like I said, if it's not important or interesting, I say nothing.



It's hard online at times as well. If a person is making small talk with me I don't think of anything to really say because I do not know that person. It's almost amazing I've made a few friends online on Twitter!



I was talking to someone on Twitter and he said that when I write about my communication problem to give him the link for it. But I really don't know what to say about this. Is that another sign that I'm a bad communicator? Maybe.



Maybe I just need lessons on this stuff. Is there a class for that? Blogging and communicating, that is. Probably. They seem to have a class for almost everything. I could do that. It would be hard for me. Because the class would probably make me stand up in front of others and talk to them about a certain subject that the teacher chooses. Which really sucks. I'm not sure what to do.



I used to be able to talk with my mom about anything. Same with my best friend. But over the past 4 years things have changed for me and about me. People say change is good and I used to think so. But is it really? When that change is so bad?

Twitter and Why I Use It

October 13, 2009


Twitter. Such a beautiful and unique website, tool, place, whatever you want to call it. I am addicted. Once I get internet on my computers I'll be able to do a lot more with it. Hopefully. I really do enjoy it, the applications for it seem interesting. I can't wait to get a Blackberry so I can get the application for that. I like trying to figure out how to work something, technology, that it. I'm not much for a Rubix cube, I feel like throwing that thing against a wall or throwing it on the floor and smashing it with a hammer whenever I try to fix the damn thing.



Off subject, again. It won't be the last probably. Back to Twitter. So far I've talked with some interesting people. Only a fair few that I talk with regularly such as @XRoger_Cx and @Intel_Eric and @DrJays and @Michelangelo200 and @Sveta_1990 and a few more whose names I might mention when I remember later. I'm horrible with names. Oh and @JerryJClarke as well. I talk with those people the most I think. And I like them. They are very interesting to me. Different people on a site that hosts millions of people, a site that gave me these people to talk with, these people that I deem as interesting and kind. (And I really hope they don't mind my using their names cause I didn't ask if I could.)




I'm a picky person when it comes to people. When I follow someone it's either because they have a good cause they are promoting or a business I like. Or people I find them interesting and maybe a bit intriguing. If I'm in a very good mood though, I follow someone because they were kind enough to follow me in the first place. But it's not an often moment for me.





Why do I Twitter? Many people have asked me this. I only say a fragment of the truth and not the whole. I first started Tweeting because I had nothing else better to do. Really. I am not even kidding. I don't work, and do not, as of yet, go to school. So I was bored and decided when I was in San Diego on vacation, I was going to get onto Twitter and figure out why it was so popular. I had first gotten my account in May and I tweeted once and didn't see what the big deal was. So I didn't log into my account or anything until September this year. When I was in California I got wireless internet on my laptop because a friend had it at her house. So I logged on, changed my username from MysticGypsy to @Gypsyladyamber for some reason that I don't know. I set it all up, my bio and avatar and looked celebs up because no one I knew had an account at that time, well that I knew of. So I followed them and they brought other people to my attention and I really got into talking to people and then reading articles they tweeted and so on.




The truth is I now tweet because one- I do have nothing to do besides write and clean. Two- I enjoy reading things that are tweeted. Three- I like the people on there so far. and the biggest reason- I LOVE that Twitter offers a world of various people with various differences from myself and other on Twitter. It's kind of hard to explain. Twitter is an odd thing for me, because I am horrible with talking to strangers in reality, but Twitter makes it easy for me to talk with others and get to know them. Am I saying this clearly?




Twitter seems to come up with something for EVERYBODY! It's amazing and brilliant. It really is. You can find people with the same interests or the opposite. You can find people with causes, people who do things that mean something to them. People with business, public speakers, authors, actors, Social Media experts, hard labor workers who love life, doctors...I could really go on and on but why not see for yourself? Twitter really is brilliant.



I may not be there for the best reason or be the most popular on there or anything like that, I believe in Twitter and it's power and benefits. I mean you find out about things faster than you do the TV News channels! About charities, causes, people, meetings, new technology, problems with the world and things in it and so much more. Twitter users help their friends on there, it's astounding how many benefits and amazing little details and magnificent people are on Twitter!!!




If you don't have an account, get one and try it for 2 months, because it took me less than that time to figure out what Twitter is about. Though there is always MORE too!

Stereotyping and Jazz

October 10, 2009


My mom is a beautiful mom and person who likes peanut M&M's. Yes indeed. I told her I was writing a blog post and she said to me "You should tell them about how beautiful I am." So I am. I'm actually writing this in a car next to her, unfortunately. But she won't be able to read what I write since she is the one driving. I don't tell her what I write about, I don't tell her what I think about most things. I don't think she'd understand. But that's that right?


Plus I'm not a very good communicator. I can write my feelings better than I can tell about them and even better than I can show them. I very rarely show what I feel. I don't think my own family knows what my beliefs, emotions and thoughts are. Most of my own friends do not know how I feel. I don't want to disappoint them nor my family with what I feel.


It's hard to write about this in a car with the one person, whom I love unconditionally, in here. So I will not.


I knew what I was going to write about when I first logged onto my computer, but I find myself not wanting to. Maybe another time. Right now there is some music on. Halestorm, a band I recently heard and absolutely love. "I Get Off" is the song. Yes, if you are mature enough to know that phrase's meaning, it is exactly as you think. It's not distasteful, it's actually a very simple and slightly erotic song. It's not soft at all though, it's hard rock and an awesome song to sing to when your alone (I would know) and probably a good song to sing to your sexual partner (that I wouldn't know) it's just a guess though.


In my first post I mention I have a wide taste in music, which is true. I'm very recently getting into Jazz. But I'm picky about it. I like the soft, velvety voice of a man singing to a soft and haunting, harmonizing instrument. But I like Jazz more when it's just the instrument itself. I don't like the upbeat kind of Jazz though. Not so far. I like it when it makes your skin tingle, your heart bounce. When it gives your spine a tickle and chill because of the beauty of it. When it makes your whole body plunge into different sensations all at once that confuses you and dazzles you.


That is by far the best Jazz.


Unfortunately, I've only heard little of that kind. If anyone has any kind of recommendations I would gladly listen to them. I try to listen to an artist's song first and decide if I like their sound. I don't really go by genre but by sound. For instance I like a few of Carrie Underwood's songs and Taylor Swift's songs. They are considered country. I don't find myself liking a lot of "country" music though. I don't judge a genre but the artists themselves. And as I notice it's usually the other way around for a good majority of the world. The judge the genre more than the artist. Every artist has their own unique sound. A genre does not. It's exactly like classifying a person into one specific group. Stereotyping. People stereotype people and music into group because they don't see one person, or artist as ONE unique person.


Let me give an example of a stereotyped person I know. My friend Dyno. (It's not her real anme but I'm not putting her real one on here.) Some people would stereotype her as a nerd, bookwork, geek...stuff like that. She's very intelligent. She can memorize nearly everything you give her. Though she cannot not remember where she put her own backpack, purse, keys, drink, etc. But though she is intelligent, there is more. She's a random creature who often just says something completely mind-numbing and surprising that it makes you have to think about what she said a few times before you get it. She's clumsy. Though thankfully I put her into high heels and showed her how to walk in them and now she loves them and hasn't broken her ankle. (Knock on wood.) She loves shoes and clothes. And thanks to me, make-up. She's a rebel too. She probably wouldn't see herself that way, but she is. And she knows how to argue, annoyingly so. It's hard to beat her but I think we're tied so far on number of wins.


She has different tastes in different things and friends and places. She can not be classified as one specific thing, much like an artist.


I hope I've done my best to explain my view on this. If not- tell me and I'll try again.


Each person is unique, not to be classified with a stereotype, unless they are boring enough to CHOOSE to be stereotyped.

Bad Day

October 8, 2009

Do you ever have one of those days where everything is going down the drain and then this one little thing goes wrong and you just completely go off on so many of the other things that go wrong?

Well today is that day for me. First, Twitter goes on freeze mode. Second, my mom tells me some things I don’t like. Third, I get all sorts of invites varying from the useless and stupid to the disgusting and gagging. Fourth, I log into a website and then BAM the puncher. My computer starts to go super slow and the two, I repeat TWO programs I have on go nuts and freeze and won’t close and I go bulged eyes, fierce sneering and a little nuts.

Not good. I’m a really patient person. Really. It takes a lot for me to get mad and I usually don’t have a temper. But today is just that day.

And I’m in the library so to make it worse I can’t kick my desk, swear out loud and curse anyone nor anything because I’d get in trouble and I’m almost to the point where I just don’t bloody care if I get in any bleeding trouble!

Who knew that a Thursday could be so bad? Oh. Speaking of which, my favorite, as of now, show will be on tonight. New episode of ‘Bones’ so that makes it a wee bit better.

So let’s see. I talked about my day, frustration and that bunch of crap I am no longer going to think about.

Ah yes, remember Jimmy? Well he’s here at the library again. I helped him out with a few things on his e-mail, computer and a few other things again. He used to go to computer science classes but had/has a learning disability and dropped out.

Did you know where they came up with calling a bug (AKA virus, problem etc.) a bug? It’s because the very first computer, which was bigger than my damn apartment, had a whole lot of switches for it. Well one day the computer had a problem, it wasn’t connecting.

So they got a whole bunch of technicians to check the switches to see what the problem was. Well eight hours later, yes I said eight, they found the switch that had the problem and saw what was causing that switch to screw up.

A bug. It was a literal bug that was stuck in the switch. That bug caused a whole lot of frustration. Much like today.

That’s what Jimmy told me.

“Wisdom and knowledge comes in all types and forms of sources.” –Me :)

Paranormal Activity

October 7, 2009

No subject. I have none for this blog. I didn't exactly plan to do a blog today. But today is such a slow day that I figured I'd write something. Because I mean, writing just kinda let's things out of you that you didn't really know you had in you to say, or well type. So I’m going to go on about the first thing that pops into my mind about today which is- Ah. Got it.

Paranormal activity.

Simple as that. And yet it is not. It fascinates me, intrigues me and captures my attention. Especially today. Let me tell you why…

I’m a Tweeter. Not as in a bird. Though I could try to tweet as one but I’d probably sound like a cat throwing up. Not pretty eh? I’m a Tweeter as in Twitter. I’m addicted and love it for many different reasons. One being- it brings many different people to my attention. I’m picky as hell when it comes to people to follow. But this one woman in Scotland captured my attention.

The night before I had heard noises in my home right as I lay down to bed and then tweeted about it. A follower therefore suggested paranormal activity. I don’t think it is. It’s probably just pipes, wind blowing branches against the house and animals. But trust me; I would love it if I did have an entity in my home, as long of course it didn’t threaten personal safety. Or scare the shit out of me. Because I mean, who wants that if you have to live with it all the time?

But this said follower retweeted what I said and one of her followers saw it and started talking to me. She believes her house has paranormal activity. And she is frightening by a few of her experiences, and it's not just her who's had them. I told her to take a few pictures at night with her camera and to record the night with a camcorder and go through it after wards. I also asked if she looked up her house's history and according to her she did and it had a not so picture-pretty history.

Then I went and looked up some Paranormal Investigative Groups that TAPS (The Atlantic Paranormal Society) had recommended for Scotland, because this woman is from Scotland. I gave her the names and contact information because she asked me to help her finding some help. I wasn’t about to turn her asking of help when she was frightened.

It’s sad how close-minded people can be about such things. She told me I’d been the first to take her seriously. Now I don’t have any proof this paranormal activity is real, I don’t know if what she says is true but I’m a pretty open-minded person to such things, so I’m going to take her word for it that she believes it’s happening.

This woman, whom I will not name since I’ve no permission to, told me she would keep me updated and I sincerely hope she does because I am interested in how it goes.

Now- I am not, by any means, an expert with the Paranormal, I’ve had no experience or skill with such things. But I’d like to learn. In fact I’d love to learn. I watch Ghost Hunters every Wednesday, well almost every Wednesday, I sometimes miss it. So I remember a few of the methods, gadgets and such that they do use.

Personally, I do believe that there are unexplained things how there that we are not meant to understand fully. But why should that stop us from trying? Why should we leave it be? If I had paranormal activity in my house I’d sit there talking to whatever is there. I don’t care if people think that’s crazy, stupid, immature or anything like that. I’m interested in it. Probably always will be.

There’s a Paranormal investigation at a supposedly “Haunted” hotel around my area every year for people who are interested. It’s a little over $250 to participate but I think I’ll do it next year when I get the money to do it. Yes, yes I think I will. Like I said in the beginning, it fascinates me. To think that souls either are left behind or choose to stay behind or just simply are. There are so many theories to why entities are on Earth. And I find them all so intriguing and almost genius.

Why can’t there be entities here? We humans are here are we not? Animals, plants, insects (as disgusting as most of them are) and all sort of other things. So why the bloody hell not Ghosts?

“There are more things in Heaven and Earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” – Hamlet, Shakespeare